Sorry away for a long time,got really busy over the weekend and so had to finish up long awaited tasks.I have a working shceudule of 7 days a week and take off days when I feel I am exhausted.No fixed pattern.I was feeling a bit sleep deprived for a few days.Compensated that too
Anyways where were we.
Yes the social law I: The rat (race) menace.
Lets begin
Rockefeller said"Competition is sin"
I say"Competition is crime but yes learn to keep away competitors".
The only solution that I presume that exists for competition is true competition.Wait! What is that?
Well if I just mention competition it means to win some sort of a race or a match.But when I say true competition it means competing for a purpose . In a mere competition how you win does not matter and taking the advantage of this little insignificant fact most of take the short cut.They tend to defeat their competitor by the wrong and the evil means and not by the right methods which should be applicable.There are two ways to make a line look short on paper.Either you draw a lengthier line beside it,or you rub the line to a shorter length as compared to another line.My dear friends,the problem is it is the latter one,the cheeky one which people tend to adopt.
"But Ravi ji,don't you think that even though the second method is a bit cheeky one,but we win atleast.",asked a young lad to me,who had just applied this method in another case to erase a longer line but he himself got erased to a bit more shorter length. "Yes Chunnu Munnu",I replied giving a reason to feel to feel elated for a while and to be distressed in another,"there is only one problem though,since you are already short in length,even if you win someone othe make come and crush you or erase you.That someone other is either going to be shorter than you or a longer line who wants to get bigger by swallowing the shorter". He gasped because he had already met one of these Chenqiz Khan."So my dear Chunnu Munnu",I replied",By bringing down someone to your level and maybe below you what have you gained,just a short sense of superiority and elation.You didn't add any value to yourself or your skills.You didn't learn anything.You did not increase your standards.You remained where you are at the level that you were no more higher no more gain.On the other hand if you really wanted to defeat him,you should have worked on yourself,on what you have,your skills and your talent.You should have tried to grow higher than him.So sometimes else even if a shark comes to swallow you,you can defend yourself because you are stronger.This requires effort but don't you think it will help you in the long run."
So how does one save himself from the rat race:
1.Save yourself from jealousy.If that makes you feel that you need to defeat someone because he has something better than you,then remember you are never going to achieve the same in the long run and maybe you would never gain the status either that you wanted.In true competition,the other person who has achieved well will make you feel inspired and then you would want to achieve some greater heights as him or greater than him.And you will feel bad not because he is superior rather that you are inferior and thus taking the whole responsibility on your shoulders you would work hard to achieve greater heights.
2.You would invariably be called into the rat race.So learn to take your enemies seriously and not only focus on your work.Remember if you give them a chance,they would eat you alive.Oh sorry they wouldn't kill you.Coz they dont have their own creativity so they would only paralyze you so that you remain dependent on the system.
3.Don't let out whats in your head.People would get jealous which is out of your hand.Do not expect your enemy to show virtue.They fight with fear,you fight with confidence.If you are confident enough go ahead tell the people what you are going to do and lets see how they can stop you,which is something i love to do.Dont even tell your friends whats in your friend if you cant be tolerant on verbal and physical and yes psychological attacks.Maybe your friends may unknowingly leak out somewhere else.
4.Study the movements of your enemy step by step.They would befriend ou before they destroy you,the easiest weapon and the most effective one that your cowering enemy would resort to is emotions.I know the great ones have that as the weakes point,and that is what makes them stone hearted not because they do not have emotion,rather they divert 100% of their passion to their work and 0% to human beings because the latter become not worthy of being trusty.
5.Save your image and learn some of their tactics.First be polished and sophisticated like them a little bit just on thier face.I know this is tough but maybe if you cant speak lies and look false,but atleast what you can do is not speak the truth.Remember your enemies feast on your virtue. People do not keep good relations with the virtuous ones.They keep relations with the evils ones because these are the ones capable to harm them.
6.As long as you are convinced that you are doing great work, don't listen to what the mediocre are saying.They want to break you from inside.They want to invariably pull you inside the rat race.Do not give them a chance.Here is an example:
It so happened that Shimin Gupta,our topper for one of the sems,didn't top in the next one.So what happens
"But Nonupiy has greater average marks of four sems",exclaimed a concerned for all but for himself guy,Jhing Jhang, while I was sipping coffee in the canteen,"Shimin is around 8th in the class."But how do you know",I asked him.I has not even bothered to calculate my average,forget about others.Placement was one year away,why are they here."But Shimin should be topping no"interrupted a girl who was confused which as to which topper should she run after,what did matter whether he liked her."But what the hell",I said,"if its placements you are worried about,all are permitted above a decent 60 or 65 and very few ask for 70+,in any case Shimin is much above 70,so what does it matter.Even if he goes for GRE,that marks is pretty good.And much more then that he has knowledge and talent which other toppers don't.All keep competing with each other and doing mugga mazi and rather doing something solid."You don't understand Ravi",replied Jhing Jhang,"if Shimin does not top it is not good for us.A talent should be constrained in the system and not break it.Otherwise he becomes independent and our value decreases.Anyways got to go.I have to calculate my own average." "So you have not even calculated your own average and moreover who is in the top 10 is beyond your reach,still you are worried who has got what",I asked him curiously.
"Be practical Ravi you won't understand",he shot back.
"what is meant by being practical keep bring others down or keep rising myself ",I remarked but to no avail because he did not reply.
Soon after Shimin comes to the canteen looking tired and distressed."Bonjour Shimin bhai hows life?",I asked him jokingly when I saw him."Nothing much yaar just distressed",he said wearily."why so bro".I asked emphatically."I don't know yaar since the morning after the results came yesterday,everyone keeps telling me one thing that my average is very low and stuff.What the hell do they think I won't do well in the placements or what.I will crack everyone if they doubt me,but yes its distressing when everone keeps telling me the same every time.",he said and I assumed or saw a droplet fall from his eye,left or right I don't know.I thought a bit and then replied,"My dear they don't doubt you thats why they are pestering you.When do you thingthat they are going to get a better chance". "What do you mean",Shimin asked like a curious child when he first time sees an aeroplane.
"See my dear,you topped and you have talent technically and you have proved it.So I guess the people fear you beacuse they can't like greatness,they only fear it.They can't compete greatness in the truest sense so they either hide from it in its shadow or tend to destroy it.Now howdo you think they would get a better chance.Now they think you are falling so when a man is falling and if you happen to kick him downwards he would fall with greater acceleration.So thats what they are doing to you.They are kicking you.They want to trouble you,break you from inside.Thats their game plan.But yes they do not know what tenacity is.Dictionary does not explains it what a man who practices it feels it.So they won't succeed but they do not know this.Why do they care.They will hide in your shadow if you tenaciously bounce back or should you choose not to break and keep fighting.The choice is yours",I finally put into words what I wanted.
"Thanks Ravi,thats alot of insight.I guess I choose to fight them on and win it all"he replied with a breaking smile as if the curious child had got the aeroplane itself as the gift.
So friends you see how people play the social game and thus keep sticking to mediocrity.Hope this post helps you to fight mediocrity and thus the rat race.If I think of anything more I shall write it in a new post.This post is already getting too long.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
SOCIAL LAW- I: You are in a rat race even if you don't want to
Rat race!
This is a term that invariably appears in all the dailies and on everyone's lips."Oh I hate this rat race thing",said Mr. Sen to me once.And the next moment he was complaining about how Mr. Gupta was showing off his new sports car.
Yes this is the rat race.When you tend to progress as long as people in your surrounding progresses and also in the fashion that when you are running,you are running neck to neck to your competitors.For example,someone buys a new bike.Now you commute daily by the bus and its comfortable and cheap enough.But now since our friend has bought a bike so must you.This is the rat race.The idea of buying the bike that came in your head was promulgated by the fact that your dear friend bought one thats why and because it was in your needlist or any priority is list.Is it bad! Well you judge yourself!Now since you buy the bike so you would have to bear the expenses of petrol and your actual expenses as compared to the bus would increase many fold.And you would not be able to leave your bike at home because your social status is at stake.
Wait I deviated from the topic: you are in the rat race even if you don't want to!
Thats the topic! Well now if I don't follow the above mentioned rule then I am not in the rat race.If I buy a bike solely on my need then I am justified.! Absolutely true you are at no wrong turns my dear.
But the very concept of rat race is to be ahead of your peers rather than working for your own excellence.So what happens! Now people around you gets jealous of you that you have bought a bike.They would now say all the wrong things about you.A few of them would buy a car to let you down.Fine no problem with this too. But now when people realize that when they tend to put you down and that psychologically it has no effect then they would start to harm you. That is where all the problem starts.
Take another example!Now Manky and Priya top in the exams and in the batch.Lohit is another guy who is average.But he is a far superior guy when it comes to creative thinking and being enterprising.So what happens.If Lohit works on a software product then it would be Manky and Priya who would be having the biggest problem.So they would hamper Lohit's work as much as possible because if he is successful then their superiority is at stake and they can't help it even though Lohit has no such qualms about being superior.It is the rest of the mass who do not think on their feet and follow the toppers blindly that would now tend to believe that there is a power far greater than being topper which is being creative and enterprising.So now Manky and Priya would start bad publicity of Lohit.Now Lohit doesn't care about these things so gives a damn and is more focussed on his work.But Manky and Priya's bad publicity of Lohit fetch them some raunchy supporters who think that if they rally behind Manky and Priya then they would also get a share of the lime light.What the hell do they care whether Lohit produces great work.Its going to bounce off their head in any case and they are not good enough to have any use of it either.Even though Lohit's product would be greatful but in the short run Manky and Priya would prove benefical.Thus starts the great rat race and Lohit is invariably pulled in it.If he is brave enough to fight it off his product shall find existence and he will truely achieve greatness otherwise he dream shall die with the dream.
So what are the solutions to this: wait for my next blog.Its 2.40 and I am feeling sleepy. Moreover I will think of a very fine list of solutions to this.Till then think about it and ponder on your own.
till then
sayonara
This is a term that invariably appears in all the dailies and on everyone's lips."Oh I hate this rat race thing",said Mr. Sen to me once.And the next moment he was complaining about how Mr. Gupta was showing off his new sports car.
Yes this is the rat race.When you tend to progress as long as people in your surrounding progresses and also in the fashion that when you are running,you are running neck to neck to your competitors.For example,someone buys a new bike.Now you commute daily by the bus and its comfortable and cheap enough.But now since our friend has bought a bike so must you.This is the rat race.The idea of buying the bike that came in your head was promulgated by the fact that your dear friend bought one thats why and because it was in your needlist or any priority is list.Is it bad! Well you judge yourself!Now since you buy the bike so you would have to bear the expenses of petrol and your actual expenses as compared to the bus would increase many fold.And you would not be able to leave your bike at home because your social status is at stake.
Wait I deviated from the topic: you are in the rat race even if you don't want to!
Thats the topic! Well now if I don't follow the above mentioned rule then I am not in the rat race.If I buy a bike solely on my need then I am justified.! Absolutely true you are at no wrong turns my dear.
But the very concept of rat race is to be ahead of your peers rather than working for your own excellence.So what happens! Now people around you gets jealous of you that you have bought a bike.They would now say all the wrong things about you.A few of them would buy a car to let you down.Fine no problem with this too. But now when people realize that when they tend to put you down and that psychologically it has no effect then they would start to harm you. That is where all the problem starts.
Take another example!Now Manky and Priya top in the exams and in the batch.Lohit is another guy who is average.But he is a far superior guy when it comes to creative thinking and being enterprising.So what happens.If Lohit works on a software product then it would be Manky and Priya who would be having the biggest problem.So they would hamper Lohit's work as much as possible because if he is successful then their superiority is at stake and they can't help it even though Lohit has no such qualms about being superior.It is the rest of the mass who do not think on their feet and follow the toppers blindly that would now tend to believe that there is a power far greater than being topper which is being creative and enterprising.So now Manky and Priya would start bad publicity of Lohit.Now Lohit doesn't care about these things so gives a damn and is more focussed on his work.But Manky and Priya's bad publicity of Lohit fetch them some raunchy supporters who think that if they rally behind Manky and Priya then they would also get a share of the lime light.What the hell do they care whether Lohit produces great work.Its going to bounce off their head in any case and they are not good enough to have any use of it either.Even though Lohit's product would be greatful but in the short run Manky and Priya would prove benefical.Thus starts the great rat race and Lohit is invariably pulled in it.If he is brave enough to fight it off his product shall find existence and he will truely achieve greatness otherwise he dream shall die with the dream.
So what are the solutions to this: wait for my next blog.Its 2.40 and I am feeling sleepy. Moreover I will think of a very fine list of solutions to this.Till then think about it and ponder on your own.
till then
sayonara
I AM SELFISH
Yes friends I am selfish.
I am selfish because I am concerned with my individuality.
I am selfish because I tend to be concerned with my benefit and work hard to achieve it.
I am selfish because I tend to choose the nature of the work that I would like and not just any work that would fulfill my two square meals a day.
I am selfish because I tend to do the work the way that I feel that it would do justice to the nature of the work.
But I am not selfless or others success would make me jealous and bring him down.
I am selfish because I am not concerned that others are not successful,that they do not tend to even take responsibility of themselves and tend to be dependent on others.Even given a chance they would not want their own hands to feed themselves.
I am selfish because I do not laugh at others failures because it does not concern me much.I would certainly help him if he would truely need but yes I am selfish to give solidarity which is of no use.
I am selfish because I feel greatness of myself and thus I tend to see greatness in others too.
I am selfish because I tend to make career choices that justifies the talent I am born with and the passion my heart vents out.I do not tend to make a career choice because it would only be better as compared to others even though it is not to my taste.
I am selfish because I do not feel great when I see inferior people all around me and rather I feel great when I have produced something off my hard work which is truely appreciated and remembered.
I am selfish because I do not have the desire to be superior amongst my fello men and rather superior within myself,and superior of my personnal image when I see myself in the mirror.
I am selfish because I do not do the business of human beings and the business of emotion and rather I tend to trade the work that my ability produces.
I am selfish because I love myself,my dreams and my work which makes e devoid of hatred and jealousy of my fellow men.
I am selfish because I tend to take every criticism in my stride and tend to work hard to rectify the misdeeds and the bad qualities in me.
I am selfish because I don't hurt others because my heart does not permit me to do so.
But I am not selfless because it only makes me happy that my fellow mates are inferior to me.
But I am not selfless that if my fellow colleague is doing something great then I do not get jealous and tend to bring him below me.
But I am not selfless because I do not tend o pity down trodden and push those down who tend to have an ability to rise up and give the world something great.
But I am not selfless because I do not sleep with a woman for the desire of sex but if it would have to then it would be for the desire of love.
But I am not selfless that I tend to live the rat race and thus even if I win I tend to remain a rat.
But I am not selfless that I tend to play psychological games so as to keep even my fellow colleagues in my control.
But I am not selfless that I do back stabbing of my friends.
But I am not selfless because I do not work for others failure and rather I worl for my own success.
I am selfish because I do not do a work because I should it rather I first tend to find a purpose of the work to be done and do it in such a way that it is matchless and worth remembering.
YES I AM SELFISH.BECAUSE I CARE FOR MYSELF.WHEN I AM HAPPY AND THEN TO FIND HAPPINESS WITHIN MYSELF THEN IT AUTOMATICALLY BECOMES IMPERATIVE FOR ME TO SPREAD THE HAPPINESS OUTSIDE OF MYSELF.
THATS SELFISHNESS FOR ME AND I PROUD TO BE A SELFISH PERSON.
I am selfish because I am concerned with my individuality.
I am selfish because I tend to be concerned with my benefit and work hard to achieve it.
I am selfish because I tend to choose the nature of the work that I would like and not just any work that would fulfill my two square meals a day.
I am selfish because I tend to do the work the way that I feel that it would do justice to the nature of the work.
But I am not selfless or others success would make me jealous and bring him down.
I am selfish because I am not concerned that others are not successful,that they do not tend to even take responsibility of themselves and tend to be dependent on others.Even given a chance they would not want their own hands to feed themselves.
I am selfish because I do not laugh at others failures because it does not concern me much.I would certainly help him if he would truely need but yes I am selfish to give solidarity which is of no use.
I am selfish because I feel greatness of myself and thus I tend to see greatness in others too.
I am selfish because I tend to make career choices that justifies the talent I am born with and the passion my heart vents out.I do not tend to make a career choice because it would only be better as compared to others even though it is not to my taste.
I am selfish because I do not feel great when I see inferior people all around me and rather I feel great when I have produced something off my hard work which is truely appreciated and remembered.
I am selfish because I do not have the desire to be superior amongst my fello men and rather superior within myself,and superior of my personnal image when I see myself in the mirror.
I am selfish because I do not do the business of human beings and the business of emotion and rather I tend to trade the work that my ability produces.
I am selfish because I love myself,my dreams and my work which makes e devoid of hatred and jealousy of my fellow men.
I am selfish because I tend to take every criticism in my stride and tend to work hard to rectify the misdeeds and the bad qualities in me.
I am selfish because I don't hurt others because my heart does not permit me to do so.
But I am not selfless because it only makes me happy that my fellow mates are inferior to me.
But I am not selfless that if my fellow colleague is doing something great then I do not get jealous and tend to bring him below me.
But I am not selfless because I do not tend o pity down trodden and push those down who tend to have an ability to rise up and give the world something great.
But I am not selfless because I do not sleep with a woman for the desire of sex but if it would have to then it would be for the desire of love.
But I am not selfless that I tend to live the rat race and thus even if I win I tend to remain a rat.
But I am not selfless that I tend to play psychological games so as to keep even my fellow colleagues in my control.
But I am not selfless that I do back stabbing of my friends.
But I am not selfless because I do not work for others failure and rather I worl for my own success.
I am selfish because I do not do a work because I should it rather I first tend to find a purpose of the work to be done and do it in such a way that it is matchless and worth remembering.
YES I AM SELFISH.BECAUSE I CARE FOR MYSELF.WHEN I AM HAPPY AND THEN TO FIND HAPPINESS WITHIN MYSELF THEN IT AUTOMATICALLY BECOMES IMPERATIVE FOR ME TO SPREAD THE HAPPINESS OUTSIDE OF MYSELF.
THATS SELFISHNESS FOR ME AND I PROUD TO BE A SELFISH PERSON.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
TRUE LOVE:WHERE ARE YOU
True love is one such commodity which has escaped most of ours imagination.
When we were children,we found love stories boring and spiderman and superman exciting.When we grew a little more,we found girls to be pain in the brains and tongue wagging mind boggling creatures,and so we stuck to our muddy games and cricket,football etc.....
When we grew a little more,we realized that what the hell,something is either wrong with me or something is wrong with the girls. Why do I start feeling uncomfortable in the presence of the girls. And this uncomfortable thing is different,completely different,for we begin to like it,as our tongue goes dry and our body goes stiff.Then we realize that yes these girls are different.When we grow a little more,we find the girl next door has changed. Suddenly she has started to show attidude and looking different.Then you begin to realize that when you talk to her,you look less towards her face and elsewhere more.Something else starts looking more attractive,like a magnet she attracts you and you are not able to keep yourself off even if you want to.And then the first girl you meet and talk to her a little more than ususal and then you realize that you are missing her often. For some day she may miss school,and you think where has she gone for a month,you keep looking at her empty seat and imagining that she is there,as usual with her beautiful and innocent smile,but then suddenly the teacher himself wakes you up and you blush.
More often then not we have all passed these situations in our school life and few of them form couples and the dating starts and yo feel that this girl is the girl that means everything for you for your whole life......
OK wake up.... scene two the college.
Most of us our not lucky enough to be coupled up in school,you know parental pressure and stuff. but in college the scene completely starts becoming different. Even if you had a childhood girlfriend,chances are you might break up too soon than speculated.
But in college when you think love,you feel like laughing about it. Does it exist??? Well what you get to see around most of the time,that more than love,the relationship that is there is a compromise.What happened to the cupid there.Has he fallen off to sleep.Sex becomes a priority more than considered as important. and then scoreboard count starts. The race for the highest score. But where is love?
The most beautiful of the girls you see are most of the time hooked up with the biggest jackass of the batch.Some where else its the wealth equation that is important.Some where else for lack of opportunity it becomes an unknown deal between the girl and the guy as to be in a relationship for as long as they are in the college.Somewhere else the girls themselves are looking for increasing their scores.
But what has happened to love??? What the fuck is true love??? Where is it??
"Ye pyaar wyaar kucch na hota",exclaimed my friend one day."Why",I asked him."arre yaar,money is everything,if you have it then you have the girl",he replied. "So suppose I have more money then you then your girl is mine",I intriqued him. "Well.......but.....dekho.....haaan.....magar....oh leave it yaar when true love will come I will know it yaar",he tried to divert the subject. "oh yes,it will come to you like a matrimonial invitation card right",I said."You think too much yaar,leave it,by the way what is your score by now,I am nearing 7 by the way",he shot back with a winkle."oh yeah,and have you tried to ask the girl with whom you think you are smart enough to score that what her score is,it must be 70.She is smarter than you pal.A girl doesn't give anything for free.",I tried to enlighten him. "yaar Ravi,you talk to much.There is no such thing as virginity.And if her score is 70 then what does it matter,mine also will be 100 one day",he said with a treacherous smile."yeah asshole,AIDS is round the corner,watch out....",and I cut the thread off.
But it matter to me if the guy was right or wrong.. So does true love exist?The fact is ?I am still looking for an answer.... but here are some of the facts I found:
1. True love exists no doubt,but like a diamond,you won't find it on the road lying.You will have to venture out,search in the hearts of every woman you meet and your search has to be like the search of the pilgrim and then maybe you would be successful.
2.your own success does attract true love.Girls in a way are programmed in such a way that their likeness is directly proportional to the success of the guy.That is a priority.Everything else is important but that comes secondary.
3.Sometimes its gut feeling.You know when you see someone that yes she is the one. You have no reasons to justify your answer,because then you don't need any.But still go slow on this one too.
4.Don't wait for true love sitting in a chair with one hand in the other.Abegger gets alms through begging,but an emotion of love,you can only get it without work in the house of God.So for true love work hard.
5.Most of the time,the girl that is right for us is the reflection we have in our head which is quite similar to our own reflection as a person we see in the mirror.So whatever you are,chances are thats the kind of girl you would want.If you like the best of everything,so would be with the opposite sex.Girls too automatically judge themselves according to their own value they set of themselves and the guy they try to hit upon.So your desires are true.Pay heed to them.
6.Astrology works,chances are 2 out of every 3 girl you are attracted to match through your astrological sign.So read a little astrology.
7.Find true love.Trust me.One love is equal to the 100 useless scores that you would make and gain nothing solid at the end of the day.
When we were children,we found love stories boring and spiderman and superman exciting.When we grew a little more,we found girls to be pain in the brains and tongue wagging mind boggling creatures,and so we stuck to our muddy games and cricket,football etc.....
When we grew a little more,we realized that what the hell,something is either wrong with me or something is wrong with the girls. Why do I start feeling uncomfortable in the presence of the girls. And this uncomfortable thing is different,completely different,for we begin to like it,as our tongue goes dry and our body goes stiff.Then we realize that yes these girls are different.When we grow a little more,we find the girl next door has changed. Suddenly she has started to show attidude and looking different.Then you begin to realize that when you talk to her,you look less towards her face and elsewhere more.Something else starts looking more attractive,like a magnet she attracts you and you are not able to keep yourself off even if you want to.And then the first girl you meet and talk to her a little more than ususal and then you realize that you are missing her often. For some day she may miss school,and you think where has she gone for a month,you keep looking at her empty seat and imagining that she is there,as usual with her beautiful and innocent smile,but then suddenly the teacher himself wakes you up and you blush.
More often then not we have all passed these situations in our school life and few of them form couples and the dating starts and yo feel that this girl is the girl that means everything for you for your whole life......
OK wake up.... scene two the college.
Most of us our not lucky enough to be coupled up in school,you know parental pressure and stuff. but in college the scene completely starts becoming different. Even if you had a childhood girlfriend,chances are you might break up too soon than speculated.
But in college when you think love,you feel like laughing about it. Does it exist??? Well what you get to see around most of the time,that more than love,the relationship that is there is a compromise.What happened to the cupid there.Has he fallen off to sleep.Sex becomes a priority more than considered as important. and then scoreboard count starts. The race for the highest score. But where is love?
The most beautiful of the girls you see are most of the time hooked up with the biggest jackass of the batch.Some where else its the wealth equation that is important.Some where else for lack of opportunity it becomes an unknown deal between the girl and the guy as to be in a relationship for as long as they are in the college.Somewhere else the girls themselves are looking for increasing their scores.
But what has happened to love??? What the fuck is true love??? Where is it??
"Ye pyaar wyaar kucch na hota",exclaimed my friend one day."Why",I asked him."arre yaar,money is everything,if you have it then you have the girl",he replied. "So suppose I have more money then you then your girl is mine",I intriqued him. "Well.......but.....dekho.....haaan.....magar....oh leave it yaar when true love will come I will know it yaar",he tried to divert the subject. "oh yes,it will come to you like a matrimonial invitation card right",I said."You think too much yaar,leave it,by the way what is your score by now,I am nearing 7 by the way",he shot back with a winkle."oh yeah,and have you tried to ask the girl with whom you think you are smart enough to score that what her score is,it must be 70.She is smarter than you pal.A girl doesn't give anything for free.",I tried to enlighten him. "yaar Ravi,you talk to much.There is no such thing as virginity.And if her score is 70 then what does it matter,mine also will be 100 one day",he said with a treacherous smile."yeah asshole,AIDS is round the corner,watch out....",and I cut the thread off.
But it matter to me if the guy was right or wrong.. So does true love exist?The fact is ?I am still looking for an answer.... but here are some of the facts I found:
1. True love exists no doubt,but like a diamond,you won't find it on the road lying.You will have to venture out,search in the hearts of every woman you meet and your search has to be like the search of the pilgrim and then maybe you would be successful.
2.your own success does attract true love.Girls in a way are programmed in such a way that their likeness is directly proportional to the success of the guy.That is a priority.Everything else is important but that comes secondary.
3.Sometimes its gut feeling.You know when you see someone that yes she is the one. You have no reasons to justify your answer,because then you don't need any.But still go slow on this one too.
4.Don't wait for true love sitting in a chair with one hand in the other.Abegger gets alms through begging,but an emotion of love,you can only get it without work in the house of God.So for true love work hard.
5.Most of the time,the girl that is right for us is the reflection we have in our head which is quite similar to our own reflection as a person we see in the mirror.So whatever you are,chances are thats the kind of girl you would want.If you like the best of everything,so would be with the opposite sex.Girls too automatically judge themselves according to their own value they set of themselves and the guy they try to hit upon.So your desires are true.Pay heed to them.
6.Astrology works,chances are 2 out of every 3 girl you are attracted to match through your astrological sign.So read a little astrology.
7.Find true love.Trust me.One love is equal to the 100 useless scores that you would make and gain nothing solid at the end of the day.
LAWS GOVERNING LIFE
Yes from today I begin my journey.... on the philosophical note and the first thing I am going to talk about is the laws of life that govern us.
LAWS OF LIFE:
Well through my experience what I have realized is that these are the following laws that actually goven our lives in some form or the other:
1. The Legal system
2. The laws of the environment you are in . e.g. following civic and traffic laws,if you are
in the college then following the college rules of attendence,giving exams,in job the same situation etc etc.
3. The social laws:
1.Well the first law,the legal system is something which you can do nothing about and it is this actually if we tend to follow then it serves our purpose of giving us justice ans security. Though it curtails our freedom in one respect,but gives us some other freedom in a greater bargain.The concept of society would be gone without this.
2. The laws governing the environment. Well this is a law which is similar to the legal system but does not form the rigid structure of the society and the nation as the legal system as a whole. Though following again these laws would be inhibiting for our freedom,but gives us alot in return.
For e.g. if we were to follow traffic rules then it certainly does curtail our freedom but in return gives us the freedom from accidents in return.
3. The social laws: this is the segment that I find questioning and worth fighting with. Social laws are the laws which do not form the structure of the society,now our environment and is followed through passive compliance. The more backward a society is the questionable are these social laws. In some where or the other it is these social laws that actually curtail the freedom an individual. You can't have inter religion marriage, you must follow so and so social code, the rich who are already rich must always be respected..... you must not try to grow extra ordinary, you must always be in the rat race, you must not be alone and only focus on your work, you must always listen to your parents,teachers,priests etc even if you are right and they are wrong. These social laws give birth to mediocrity in the society. Because of these social laws and the concept of inter dependability makes an individual mediocre...... How well one post would not suffice an answer to this question... so I will try and answer this phenomenal question through a series of post like SOCIAL LAWS-I SOCIAL LAWS-II and so on.
But here I shall give you an example:
The social laws states that the topper is supreme. Who is the topper....he is a topper as compared to the rest of the class. So what does he need to top? Study? Of course.... but more important then that... get marks. If you look at things practically what happens: how does a topper get marks. By having a good impression on the teacher,by having good attendence,writing with good handwriting in the exam,always respecting your teacher,never objecting your teacher in the class,studying only what is taught in the class,studying only what the teacher has taught and no other interpretation of it,one does not add any value of its own to the subject,having good previous academic record in the previous semesters,not showing your crative ability on the paper,writing with different coloured pens in the exams,always,wearing glasses and looking simple so that the teacher thinks you are a simple person,trying to get intimate with the teacher by asking just the question which he can answer and showing your false interest in him,even though he has taught crap in the class......by always complaining to the teacher about other students,back stabbing fellow mates with a grin..... well follow these always and I assure you,if someone gets 80%,chances are 40% includes these stuff........So if you wanna be a topper follow theses.But let me promise you something.....you shall be devoid of deep command in the subject that you study and will never be able to develop your insights and creativity......I leave it to your jurisdiction
I have some urgent work today.... have to cover up some other things... so lets catch you later..forth coming posts now will be on a similar theme so just watch out.
till then
sayonara....
LAWS OF LIFE:
Well through my experience what I have realized is that these are the following laws that actually goven our lives in some form or the other:
1. The Legal system
2. The laws of the environment you are in . e.g. following civic and traffic laws,if you are
in the college then following the college rules of attendence,giving exams,in job the same situation etc etc.
3. The social laws:
1.Well the first law,the legal system is something which you can do nothing about and it is this actually if we tend to follow then it serves our purpose of giving us justice ans security. Though it curtails our freedom in one respect,but gives us some other freedom in a greater bargain.The concept of society would be gone without this.
2. The laws governing the environment. Well this is a law which is similar to the legal system but does not form the rigid structure of the society and the nation as the legal system as a whole. Though following again these laws would be inhibiting for our freedom,but gives us alot in return.
For e.g. if we were to follow traffic rules then it certainly does curtail our freedom but in return gives us the freedom from accidents in return.
3. The social laws: this is the segment that I find questioning and worth fighting with. Social laws are the laws which do not form the structure of the society,now our environment and is followed through passive compliance. The more backward a society is the questionable are these social laws. In some where or the other it is these social laws that actually curtail the freedom an individual. You can't have inter religion marriage, you must follow so and so social code, the rich who are already rich must always be respected..... you must not try to grow extra ordinary, you must always be in the rat race, you must not be alone and only focus on your work, you must always listen to your parents,teachers,priests etc even if you are right and they are wrong. These social laws give birth to mediocrity in the society. Because of these social laws and the concept of inter dependability makes an individual mediocre...... How well one post would not suffice an answer to this question... so I will try and answer this phenomenal question through a series of post like SOCIAL LAWS-I SOCIAL LAWS-II and so on.
But here I shall give you an example:
The social laws states that the topper is supreme. Who is the topper....he is a topper as compared to the rest of the class. So what does he need to top? Study? Of course.... but more important then that... get marks. If you look at things practically what happens: how does a topper get marks. By having a good impression on the teacher,by having good attendence,writing with good handwriting in the exam,always respecting your teacher,never objecting your teacher in the class,studying only what is taught in the class,studying only what the teacher has taught and no other interpretation of it,one does not add any value of its own to the subject,having good previous academic record in the previous semesters,not showing your crative ability on the paper,writing with different coloured pens in the exams,always,wearing glasses and looking simple so that the teacher thinks you are a simple person,trying to get intimate with the teacher by asking just the question which he can answer and showing your false interest in him,even though he has taught crap in the class......by always complaining to the teacher about other students,back stabbing fellow mates with a grin..... well follow these always and I assure you,if someone gets 80%,chances are 40% includes these stuff........So if you wanna be a topper follow theses.But let me promise you something.....you shall be devoid of deep command in the subject that you study and will never be able to develop your insights and creativity......I leave it to your jurisdiction
I have some urgent work today.... have to cover up some other things... so lets catch you later..forth coming posts now will be on a similar theme so just watch out.
till then
sayonara....
Monday, March 24, 2008
Why this blog on life
Hi ....... so I am back.after the Monday blues and post Holi celebration... my life is coming back to the same old grind..... like all of us...welcome back...
I received a quiet response for my blog and an overwhelming one.But the people who liked the theme were important to me and that matters to me more.Well most of the others did'nt want to appreciate things openly so did not show any reaction to my blog.... and so is the comment box empty. Otherwise in one day more than 60 responses is good enough.....for a starter
Well let me get back to the relevant question as to is this blog important at all and why am I doing this. How am I going to be so sure of the things that I write...how have I configured these things.... and stuff and all... And this post in particular is being posted to bring the theme into daylight which I didn't in my first post.And yes I have not posted my philosophies at the moment or any other relevant data as I am still at an initial stage of organising things. I posted the "Bhaang experience" episode coz I just wanted to see the people's reaction to my posts. And I was glad that people like the theme more in my first post than the bhaang thing though at few places they liked the silent humour and the innocence of the post.........
Anyways LIFE: for me has been an experimentation. I have experimented with my life in a variety of ways just to understand the different aspects of a coin here the coin called life......... Thus I felt I needed to share my experiences. The biggest truth that I wish to share at the outset is that as far as life is concerned there is no set of rules that says that your life must be governed by so and so rules and then only your life is the truest one.... if we were to follow this dogmatic dictum.... let me assure you you would always an assurity or approval from others that yes you are living the right life and that you shall be dependent on others for the same. LIFE is LIFE what is lived out of one's own conviction and decisions that he makes at each instant of the moment thats worthy enough of a dilemma. Well how is this going to be done........well this blog is all about that....
So what am going to do.... blast the set of rules and give my own....Nah! that would be useless and would be just called a hypocrite of sort.... like all the religions of this world... which came to replace the other only to become rigid and entangled within itself..... I wouldn't dare do such a thing. It would be against the principle of my and the principle of greatness..... My only purpose would be to question the already existing rules.... why do we follow them... and thus to make you think and realize the very existence of these rules..I just want you think on your own and become conscience of the very existence here on this earth and don't blame who so ever on this earth.....
Here I would like to touch different aspects of life... from school to college to everything. All the things that shape up our life like education,books and job... all shall be covered.....So what do I mean by covering them up... well just wait and watch.... thats the blog all about... and yes the suspense wouldn't be taxing... and no I do not wish to make things entangled or complicated.... its going to be as smooth as the surface of ice... only you need to balance it so you don't fall......
But why have I conducted my life as an experimentation.... why do we need to change.... why all the hoopla over the new set of rules.... why....
Well long ago... people believed...that the earth was flat...people accepted it.Try not educate your child.. and he will grow to believe the same....life was normal then... people lived,ate,urinated defecated worked, traded and life went on.They believed in the system and then worked hard for the king who lived there....then somebody came and said that the earth was round like a sphere..... their life changed. Did they need it.... did they want it..... but still this little fact which they considered false actually changed everything.........
Galileo was hanged by the Roman church.... because he said the earth revolved around the sun and not vice versa thus disapproving the age old doctrine of the church which said that the Earth was the centre of the universe and that everything revolved around it....well what did he need out it....
Homer,Socrates,Aristotle...... these are the other few names that just did this. THey have revolutionized the way we think.... bringing us closer to the reality............
Newton gave us the laws... that essentially changed the scientific scene on the earth...what was the need....
Many others have been doing the same..... read Ayn Rand.,.....Paulo Coelho...... and your views shall change for the betterment of yours.
I am just a small leaf as compared to this mammoth tree which has been growing since the inception of mankind..... I just feel eat and observe... but God for what I don't know I feel and see things in a different way... which I feel half the population doesn't see and are not capable of seeing. The half of the other half acknowledges it and they wish to manipulate humanity with this fact... and the half of the other half that is left behind....... wish to follow only on the path they choose.... As for me which half and half of halves do I belong...I do not know... maybe I am 1/4th of a day like in a year born in a full days after every four years..... or maybe those few extra hours that takes shape in 400 years..... what ever I am..... I am me... and I am not able to keep quiet and digest the things as it is... they need to be questioned... why are we submitting to them... through passive compliance..... why???
We need to change... in this era before hypocriticism grinds us,something needs to be done..... if you need air to breathe come to the blog.... for the rest you could go anywhere.......
My words are not a mark of wisdom or taken from some standard criteria.... its essentially is mine.. yes they are influenced from a variety of philosophers but at the end of the day.... it is essentially mine..... and the only laboratory where you can test them is in your brain...your mind and your conscience. There are no quality certificates like ISO9001 available with me but I would be just glad enough if you care to even ponder over it... reject them thats your decision and I respect them... accept them but make sure that you have made your own rules......play the game like a player.... like a warrior and not the puppet......
I shall start with my review of books that influenced me,the writers and authors that have changed the way I think and the movies I like that have influenced me and are owrth mentioning....... well actually in a way life and thoughts are a constant stream of process... so I guess everything that affects us in general and life in particularshall be mentioned...... but trust me all shall give some messages related to the
blog LIFE: through my eyes. So sit back and enjoy... for now the train has indeed left its home station....and while it travels all the way to its final station.. sit back look out.... the scenario is beautiful, the landscapes wonderful... and as you come along and see different culture and people on different stations... you would realize how different the world is... there is so much to see, so much to feel.... and how I didn't come out on this wonderful journey of life............
going for now
sayonara
I received a quiet response for my blog and an overwhelming one.But the people who liked the theme were important to me and that matters to me more.Well most of the others did'nt want to appreciate things openly so did not show any reaction to my blog.... and so is the comment box empty. Otherwise in one day more than 60 responses is good enough.....for a starter
Well let me get back to the relevant question as to is this blog important at all and why am I doing this. How am I going to be so sure of the things that I write...how have I configured these things.... and stuff and all... And this post in particular is being posted to bring the theme into daylight which I didn't in my first post.And yes I have not posted my philosophies at the moment or any other relevant data as I am still at an initial stage of organising things. I posted the "Bhaang experience" episode coz I just wanted to see the people's reaction to my posts. And I was glad that people like the theme more in my first post than the bhaang thing though at few places they liked the silent humour and the innocence of the post.........
Anyways LIFE: for me has been an experimentation. I have experimented with my life in a variety of ways just to understand the different aspects of a coin here the coin called life......... Thus I felt I needed to share my experiences. The biggest truth that I wish to share at the outset is that as far as life is concerned there is no set of rules that says that your life must be governed by so and so rules and then only your life is the truest one.... if we were to follow this dogmatic dictum.... let me assure you you would always an assurity or approval from others that yes you are living the right life and that you shall be dependent on others for the same. LIFE is LIFE what is lived out of one's own conviction and decisions that he makes at each instant of the moment thats worthy enough of a dilemma. Well how is this going to be done........well this blog is all about that....
So what am going to do.... blast the set of rules and give my own....Nah! that would be useless and would be just called a hypocrite of sort.... like all the religions of this world... which came to replace the other only to become rigid and entangled within itself..... I wouldn't dare do such a thing. It would be against the principle of my and the principle of greatness..... My only purpose would be to question the already existing rules.... why do we follow them... and thus to make you think and realize the very existence of these rules..I just want you think on your own and become conscience of the very existence here on this earth and don't blame who so ever on this earth.....
Here I would like to touch different aspects of life... from school to college to everything. All the things that shape up our life like education,books and job... all shall be covered.....So what do I mean by covering them up... well just wait and watch.... thats the blog all about... and yes the suspense wouldn't be taxing... and no I do not wish to make things entangled or complicated.... its going to be as smooth as the surface of ice... only you need to balance it so you don't fall......
But why have I conducted my life as an experimentation.... why do we need to change.... why all the hoopla over the new set of rules.... why....
Well long ago... people believed...that the earth was flat...people accepted it.Try not educate your child.. and he will grow to believe the same....life was normal then... people lived,ate,urinated defecated worked, traded and life went on.They believed in the system and then worked hard for the king who lived there....then somebody came and said that the earth was round like a sphere..... their life changed. Did they need it.... did they want it..... but still this little fact which they considered false actually changed everything.........
Galileo was hanged by the Roman church.... because he said the earth revolved around the sun and not vice versa thus disapproving the age old doctrine of the church which said that the Earth was the centre of the universe and that everything revolved around it....well what did he need out it....
Homer,Socrates,Aristotle...... these are the other few names that just did this. THey have revolutionized the way we think.... bringing us closer to the reality............
Newton gave us the laws... that essentially changed the scientific scene on the earth...what was the need....
Many others have been doing the same..... read Ayn Rand.,.....Paulo Coelho...... and your views shall change for the betterment of yours.
I am just a small leaf as compared to this mammoth tree which has been growing since the inception of mankind..... I just feel eat and observe... but God for what I don't know I feel and see things in a different way... which I feel half the population doesn't see and are not capable of seeing. The half of the other half acknowledges it and they wish to manipulate humanity with this fact... and the half of the other half that is left behind....... wish to follow only on the path they choose.... As for me which half and half of halves do I belong...I do not know... maybe I am 1/4th of a day like in a year born in a full days after every four years..... or maybe those few extra hours that takes shape in 400 years..... what ever I am..... I am me... and I am not able to keep quiet and digest the things as it is... they need to be questioned... why are we submitting to them... through passive compliance..... why???
We need to change... in this era before hypocriticism grinds us,something needs to be done..... if you need air to breathe come to the blog.... for the rest you could go anywhere.......
My words are not a mark of wisdom or taken from some standard criteria.... its essentially is mine.. yes they are influenced from a variety of philosophers but at the end of the day.... it is essentially mine..... and the only laboratory where you can test them is in your brain...your mind and your conscience. There are no quality certificates like ISO9001 available with me but I would be just glad enough if you care to even ponder over it... reject them thats your decision and I respect them... accept them but make sure that you have made your own rules......play the game like a player.... like a warrior and not the puppet......
I shall start with my review of books that influenced me,the writers and authors that have changed the way I think and the movies I like that have influenced me and are owrth mentioning....... well actually in a way life and thoughts are a constant stream of process... so I guess everything that affects us in general and life in particularshall be mentioned...... but trust me all shall give some messages related to the
blog LIFE: through my eyes. So sit back and enjoy... for now the train has indeed left its home station....and while it travels all the way to its final station.. sit back look out.... the scenario is beautiful, the landscapes wonderful... and as you come along and see different culture and people on different stations... you would realize how different the world is... there is so much to see, so much to feel.... and how I didn't come out on this wonderful journey of life............
going for now
sayonara
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Happy Holi: The Bhaang Experience
yeeeaaaAAAAH, its Holiy
time for some bhangra and masti..... am I mad???? Bhangra@HOli.... arre Holi hai :)
Jokes apart,I wish all a Happy Holi and may our lives be colourful as this colourful day.
Holi..... the finest of my memories is of the first year in DCE when I planned to stay back in hostel for the celebration and there you are..... apart from the colour and the mud(yes muddy water) there was another worth remembering was the bhaang episode. Having had never tasted this divine(:D) beauty before,I planned to go ahead this time. Well it was served with pakoras(well actually embedded in it like an electronic circuit) and when I started to have one of those delicious thing... I realized the bhaang had no effect. I asked my friends what could the problem be.... but they all laughed it away. I was too lost in my own to notice anything... and I asked the mess guys that was there anything in it..... well they just denied it with a treacherous smile...... And so believing them.... I gobbled up quite a lot of those pakoras and there I was..... still nothing happened..... I said o myself.... that this bhaang thing only affected the weaky ones and was doing some back patting then. half an hour later the lunch was served. And then I realized something was indeed happening to me.... somewhere something was getting wrong. The mess room was literally rotating around me. I sat down again got up sat down got up sat down got up sat down got up... everyone was looking at me. I said to myself "what the hell am I dying... but no I was actually enjoying myself" A guy came near me.... and I felt he was laughing at me.... I slapped him there at once..... the poor guy ran away frantically..I guess my hands proved quite strong for him.
well unable to control myself.... I decided it was time I rushed to my hostel.I left the mess and started strolling back to my hostel which happened to be two km away from the mess as first years were then kept in a separte den. So I went back walking... sitting running.... and somehow I managed to get back to the hostel. I drank some water... but no effect. I was sweating.... and I now began to see two of everything. It was a first hand experience of how the drunkers felt when I used to find them loitering around in the streets.But this was bhaang... it was worse coz it did not come at once but slowly and gradually like a python slowly wrapping up its prey."dinner time baby".... I heard the bhaang say.... "wanna some more pakores you bravy boy"...... "shut the fuck up"...... I heard myself screaming..... I was lost........ then I strarted to feel as if I was flying....... hold me somebody.... aaah but there was none. Catch the bed.... catch the fucking bed,I commanded myself..... and I jumped on the bed as if it was my mistress. And as if sleep grapped me instantly..... I could feel... everything around me calming down and I was landing on my back slowly and gradually.Then as if I was sinking in my bed...............deeper and deeper and I started to feel as if I had penetrated the floor and going deeper and deeper inside.Then suddenly I was falling and what the hell the gravitational pull was increasing and increasing..... defying Newton dada's law... and what the hell and suddenly I woke up............. wow I had slept five hours continuously........ from 2 to 7 in the evening....... and I was feeling very nice... and yes hungry and aroused too. Well the aroused feeling was so high as if it was stinging me.... so was hunger...... I then realized that any hormoneic change in the body would cause a deeper sensation in the body. oooooooaaaaAAAAh. What the hell. Luckily dinner time was nearing...... so I planned to hurry to the mess. Meanwhile my friends were having a time of their life beacuse I had given them enough fodder to be mused. "Uthh gaya Kumbhkaran(So the heavy sleeper has got up)",commented a building mate."Fuck you,asshole",was the timed reaction which we usually resorted and had got habituated to in the hostel ."So when did you turn gay that you want to fuck me",he shot back."Fuck your mom",I defended and that was enough to finally silence him.... So I finally hurried to the mess.My hunger was growing big.... and I realized that if I did'nt control it I would eat up somebody.The food was served and I ate like a horse.Well I took double the normal serves and drank alot of water.I felt a sense of satisfaction after that.But again the sense was so strong that I felt that I was feeling sleepy. What the hell I thought. I rushed back to the hostel.I wanted to sleep. I wanted to call alot of people too especially my parents coz I saw a missed call in my cell from them too. But given the condition I was in I felt hitting the bed would be the best idea. And there I was fast asleep........ yes the bhaang effect was wearing out....but not fully. So this time I wasn't flying around and was in my bed. And as usual... like all other frustrated engineering students I felt the sexual desire rising....and the arousal was high. But yes whatever happened it happened in my sleep. and in the night... I slept at arounf 9-9.30 but got up at 10 in the morning. My mates dont usually bother me but I guess they understood the bhaang effect so they didn't bother to wake me up either. Going for classes wouldn't be good idea, I said to myself.And what more my head wasnt feeling very heavy. That was peculiar.But my eyes were feeling set. But yes there was freshness. Maybe because I used to sleep less everyday that this bhaang gave me years of sound sleep that was due. I called up my mom and dad and suddenly this bhaang thing slipped off my tounge. My father had a good laugh and so did my mom(thank god they didn't get angry warna meri lagi hoti watt).Then my father explained me that bhaang showed its effect slowly and that it would last a couple of days more,one feels hungry alot in this case and anything you feel goes extreme.He further said that I did good by going to sleep or I would have definitely created a scene. Hmmm then I realized one of the guys had told me a story the other night about a guy who too took much of the bhaang and was chasing a rag and those leaves picker girls(or maybe a woman) and thank god he fell to the ground soon enough from where on they had to carry him back to the hostel. I smiled amusingly and said to myself that thank god I wasn't there..... or my engineering degree would be over coz ....... you know it because I wouldn't have fell to the ground to soon.
Anyways paying heed to my father's words and instructions and memorizing the home remedies of my mom like taking lemon water with salt and stuff like that..... I planned it was time to get ready. 12 was getting near and so I decided to push off to the mess. Once again I ate heartily came back slept alot went to the mess again came back slept willfully during the night again and the next day I felt somewhat better. Soon enough everything was getting normal and I stopped jerking around. Attended class,stayed away from the girls for the bhaang effect was still lingering around....... and within anothe day or two I was 100% normal again(or maybe abnormal coz that is my usual state). but the bhaang effect was worth remembering and I really feel smused when I think about it.
But yes after that experience I usually don't take any eateries from anyone during the Holi.... he he he
Anyways... the Holi this time was normal... and not unusual and I hope you people must have also had a jolly good time
time to conclude and go
sayonara
(PS: Sayonara means goodbye and not "saya mein naara" as once one of my friends had commented and too much colour is the Holi effect.... kya karu rang barse bheege chunaar wali.....rang barse :) )
time for some bhangra and masti..... am I mad???? Bhangra@HOli.... arre Holi hai :)
Jokes apart,I wish all a Happy Holi and may our lives be colourful as this colourful day.
Holi..... the finest of my memories is of the first year in DCE when I planned to stay back in hostel for the celebration and there you are..... apart from the colour and the mud(yes muddy water) there was another worth remembering was the bhaang episode. Having had never tasted this divine(:D) beauty before,I planned to go ahead this time. Well it was served with pakoras(well actually embedded in it like an electronic circuit) and when I started to have one of those delicious thing... I realized the bhaang had no effect. I asked my friends what could the problem be.... but they all laughed it away. I was too lost in my own to notice anything... and I asked the mess guys that was there anything in it..... well they just denied it with a treacherous smile...... And so believing them.... I gobbled up quite a lot of those pakoras and there I was..... still nothing happened..... I said o myself.... that this bhaang thing only affected the weaky ones and was doing some back patting then. half an hour later the lunch was served. And then I realized something was indeed happening to me.... somewhere something was getting wrong. The mess room was literally rotating around me. I sat down again got up sat down got up sat down got up sat down got up... everyone was looking at me. I said to myself "what the hell am I dying... but no I was actually enjoying myself" A guy came near me.... and I felt he was laughing at me.... I slapped him there at once..... the poor guy ran away frantically..I guess my hands proved quite strong for him.
well unable to control myself.... I decided it was time I rushed to my hostel.I left the mess and started strolling back to my hostel which happened to be two km away from the mess as first years were then kept in a separte den. So I went back walking... sitting running.... and somehow I managed to get back to the hostel. I drank some water... but no effect. I was sweating.... and I now began to see two of everything. It was a first hand experience of how the drunkers felt when I used to find them loitering around in the streets.But this was bhaang... it was worse coz it did not come at once but slowly and gradually like a python slowly wrapping up its prey."dinner time baby".... I heard the bhaang say.... "wanna some more pakores you bravy boy"...... "shut the fuck up"...... I heard myself screaming..... I was lost........ then I strarted to feel as if I was flying....... hold me somebody.... aaah but there was none. Catch the bed.... catch the fucking bed,I commanded myself..... and I jumped on the bed as if it was my mistress. And as if sleep grapped me instantly..... I could feel... everything around me calming down and I was landing on my back slowly and gradually.Then as if I was sinking in my bed...............deeper and deeper and I started to feel as if I had penetrated the floor and going deeper and deeper inside.Then suddenly I was falling and what the hell the gravitational pull was increasing and increasing..... defying Newton dada's law... and what the hell and suddenly I woke up............. wow I had slept five hours continuously........ from 2 to 7 in the evening....... and I was feeling very nice... and yes hungry and aroused too. Well the aroused feeling was so high as if it was stinging me.... so was hunger...... I then realized that any hormoneic change in the body would cause a deeper sensation in the body. oooooooaaaaAAAAh. What the hell. Luckily dinner time was nearing...... so I planned to hurry to the mess. Meanwhile my friends were having a time of their life beacuse I had given them enough fodder to be mused. "Uthh gaya Kumbhkaran(So the heavy sleeper has got up)",commented a building mate."Fuck you,asshole",was the timed reaction which we usually resorted and had got habituated to in the hostel ."So when did you turn gay that you want to fuck me",he shot back."Fuck your mom",I defended and that was enough to finally silence him.... So I finally hurried to the mess.My hunger was growing big.... and I realized that if I did'nt control it I would eat up somebody.The food was served and I ate like a horse.Well I took double the normal serves and drank alot of water.I felt a sense of satisfaction after that.But again the sense was so strong that I felt that I was feeling sleepy. What the hell I thought. I rushed back to the hostel.I wanted to sleep. I wanted to call alot of people too especially my parents coz I saw a missed call in my cell from them too. But given the condition I was in I felt hitting the bed would be the best idea. And there I was fast asleep........ yes the bhaang effect was wearing out....but not fully. So this time I wasn't flying around and was in my bed. And as usual... like all other frustrated engineering students I felt the sexual desire rising....and the arousal was high. But yes whatever happened it happened in my sleep. and in the night... I slept at arounf 9-9.30 but got up at 10 in the morning. My mates dont usually bother me but I guess they understood the bhaang effect so they didn't bother to wake me up either. Going for classes wouldn't be good idea, I said to myself.And what more my head wasnt feeling very heavy. That was peculiar.But my eyes were feeling set. But yes there was freshness. Maybe because I used to sleep less everyday that this bhaang gave me years of sound sleep that was due. I called up my mom and dad and suddenly this bhaang thing slipped off my tounge. My father had a good laugh and so did my mom(thank god they didn't get angry warna meri lagi hoti watt).Then my father explained me that bhaang showed its effect slowly and that it would last a couple of days more,one feels hungry alot in this case and anything you feel goes extreme.He further said that I did good by going to sleep or I would have definitely created a scene. Hmmm then I realized one of the guys had told me a story the other night about a guy who too took much of the bhaang and was chasing a rag and those leaves picker girls(or maybe a woman) and thank god he fell to the ground soon enough from where on they had to carry him back to the hostel. I smiled amusingly and said to myself that thank god I wasn't there..... or my engineering degree would be over coz ....... you know it because I wouldn't have fell to the ground to soon.
Anyways paying heed to my father's words and instructions and memorizing the home remedies of my mom like taking lemon water with salt and stuff like that..... I planned it was time to get ready. 12 was getting near and so I decided to push off to the mess. Once again I ate heartily came back slept alot went to the mess again came back slept willfully during the night again and the next day I felt somewhat better. Soon enough everything was getting normal and I stopped jerking around. Attended class,stayed away from the girls for the bhaang effect was still lingering around....... and within anothe day or two I was 100% normal again(or maybe abnormal coz that is my usual state). but the bhaang effect was worth remembering and I really feel smused when I think about it.
But yes after that experience I usually don't take any eateries from anyone during the Holi.... he he he
Anyways... the Holi this time was normal... and not unusual and I hope you people must have also had a jolly good time
time to conclude and go
sayonara
(PS: Sayonara means goodbye and not "saya mein naara" as once one of my friends had commented and too much colour is the Holi effect.... kya karu rang barse bheege chunaar wali.....rang barse :) )
Thursday, March 20, 2008
here i begin
Finally I decide to pen my views(sorry type here) to the entire world. I have always been jostling for a platform where I could give vent to the ideas that keep taking birth in my not so intelligent yet good enough brain and so I have finally decided that the platform would be a Blog initially and lets see what the future holds out.
But who am I?? Like other young adolescents stepping into the man's shoes(or already have I become one) I am a student too and presently completing my engineering in Information Technology from Delhi College Of Engineering(www.dce.ac.in) and my due date in this institution is 2009 after which I shall be handed over to the outside world to make my life.
'LIFE' the word "LIFE" I just used before in the previous sentence has always been an inspiring icon and confusing enough too. The word 'LIFE' has always let me into confusion so many times and has let me think beyond the realms of existence.
The subject 'LIFE' has fascinated me so much that here it is I have decided that I shall start a blog on it. As I mentioned before, after 2009 I would be handed over to the outside world to make my own life. why does it have to be this handed over ting?? Practically if you would see that is what precisely what happens in real life. We just don't know where we are,at what crossroads we are at and just keep doing things as it is customarily done and keep moving on in our life. What constitutes a life lived of,why do we have to be successful in a way to make a life,why are we societal in our behaviour,why does it always seem that everything is not right and an even bigger problem that occurs is that we can do nothing about it, Why is there a constant fear that binds us and we find inescapable? Why are we so afraid of taking chances? Many questions many questions....and many books have been written on the same subject over and over again. Many writers have made alot of money in only telling others how to life even if their own life has been a rotten shit. So what is true and what is false. What differentiates the reality from the illusion.? wait a minute there is even more? The most superior of all the questions that I always keep thinking of is that why doesn't everyone actually think on these lines.? Why are we so complacent minded after all...............
Getting back to the core issue LIFE...... like most thinkers(which I like to believe myself to be one amongst them) I too deviate from the core issue every time and get lost in the realms of a different world of thoughts where I try finding answers to the questions I keep asking in this world.
Anyways I shall keep blogging as of now and as much as I possibly can and yes this blog is primarily meant for wide readership. I wish to install the passion of quest in everybody so that we all are able to escape the illusion of something that sometimes seems to be a practical reality and take you into the world where the world is indeed how you dreamt it to be.................. Trust me my efforts for finding the right answers and more than that ,asking the right questions,.... in the last few years has definitely given me a whole new perspective which I definitely feel its worth sharing it with everyone. Let us not keep living in the illusion and one day when we realize that we are graying ,either we will start to keep hitting out at the reality or die thinking and longing for the reality? Talk to the gray men most of them will affirm my view but yes not legitimately through their tongue.
Well this first post of mine seems confusing. well so am I(confused) :)...... and yes the purpose was the same.... TO CONFUSE YOU AND MAKE YOU THINK......... and through this blog of mine... I shall answer these very questions and yes as the blog says LIFE: through my eyes....... so definitely my purpose is nothing but to make you find YOUR LIFE:through your eyes.........
will be back soon
sayonara
But who am I?? Like other young adolescents stepping into the man's shoes(or already have I become one) I am a student too and presently completing my engineering in Information Technology from Delhi College Of Engineering(www.dce.ac.in) and my due date in this institution is 2009 after which I shall be handed over to the outside world to make my life.
'LIFE' the word "LIFE" I just used before in the previous sentence has always been an inspiring icon and confusing enough too. The word 'LIFE' has always let me into confusion so many times and has let me think beyond the realms of existence.
The subject 'LIFE' has fascinated me so much that here it is I have decided that I shall start a blog on it. As I mentioned before, after 2009 I would be handed over to the outside world to make my own life. why does it have to be this handed over ting?? Practically if you would see that is what precisely what happens in real life. We just don't know where we are,at what crossroads we are at and just keep doing things as it is customarily done and keep moving on in our life. What constitutes a life lived of,why do we have to be successful in a way to make a life,why are we societal in our behaviour,why does it always seem that everything is not right and an even bigger problem that occurs is that we can do nothing about it, Why is there a constant fear that binds us and we find inescapable? Why are we so afraid of taking chances? Many questions many questions....and many books have been written on the same subject over and over again. Many writers have made alot of money in only telling others how to life even if their own life has been a rotten shit. So what is true and what is false. What differentiates the reality from the illusion.? wait a minute there is even more? The most superior of all the questions that I always keep thinking of is that why doesn't everyone actually think on these lines.? Why are we so complacent minded after all...............
Getting back to the core issue LIFE...... like most thinkers(which I like to believe myself to be one amongst them) I too deviate from the core issue every time and get lost in the realms of a different world of thoughts where I try finding answers to the questions I keep asking in this world.
Anyways I shall keep blogging as of now and as much as I possibly can and yes this blog is primarily meant for wide readership. I wish to install the passion of quest in everybody so that we all are able to escape the illusion of something that sometimes seems to be a practical reality and take you into the world where the world is indeed how you dreamt it to be.................. Trust me my efforts for finding the right answers and more than that ,asking the right questions,.... in the last few years has definitely given me a whole new perspective which I definitely feel its worth sharing it with everyone. Let us not keep living in the illusion and one day when we realize that we are graying ,either we will start to keep hitting out at the reality or die thinking and longing for the reality? Talk to the gray men most of them will affirm my view but yes not legitimately through their tongue.
Well this first post of mine seems confusing. well so am I(confused) :)...... and yes the purpose was the same.... TO CONFUSE YOU AND MAKE YOU THINK......... and through this blog of mine... I shall answer these very questions and yes as the blog says LIFE: through my eyes....... so definitely my purpose is nothing but to make you find YOUR LIFE:through your eyes.........
will be back soon
sayonara
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