My heart always beat for you, and now it would end with you.

No more shall I wait,for every moment seems like a year, no more shall think,for every thought makes me think only of you, no more shall I feel,for every touch brings me closer to u, no more shall I live for every breadth brings me your fragrance, who are you, for u are the pulse that is the beat of my heart.

Each day as it passes, seems like a year has eroded of my life. Each breadth I take seems like the lesser I want to live. With each beat of my heart, brings death closer to me. Why am I so sad, so lonely so unequivocal.
Who were you? Why does it seem you were me and I were you. Why is that I prayed that I prayed to God and asked only for you. Why is it that my every moment was for you. You were mine and you always will be.
My soul, my love,my desire, my life... my wish, you were everything that made me complete.
Every reason,every inspiration, they couldn't exist it weren't for your presence.
Every logic,every word, you made my intelligence alive.
If there was life after death,and life after even that life, I never wished anything from God but you.I offered him to take my everything,just to be with you...for eternity.
But that day. Oh that day! In this chaotic city, where there is peace only in the infinity of the ocean, I wanted to take you out. Oh how long it had been, when I had been with you, only with you, caught in the rush of the city, trying the best,making the best for us. And I felt I wasn't living anymore,for the time with you spent,was getting less and less even more.
We had gone to the nostalgic gateway Of India, where I had first seen you,clicking photographs, giving sweets to the street kids,scolding them teaching them laughing with them. The strain of muscles on your face, as they widened to let the world glitter with your shining teeth, your smile that that would light a million bulbs of happiness across the world, and you clicked. That camera,a professional one for sure, the way it hugged across your neck, making me jealous, for it seemed it took you away in his arms,to the world of click,click click.
And suddenly you were coming towards me. I felt a little sense of fear. Did you read my thoughts I said to myself. You got nearer,I heart beat faster, like the ray of light from an enigma coming close to touch you.
"Excuse me", you told me. Well squeeze me I thought heard."Can you help me take these scenic view?",you asked me."Of course I replied",As if I had the the desire to say no. And as you set the stand for the photo. Click,click click. The sound of the camera came like the beats from A. R Rehman. Hmmm beauty can make you mad, I had read.But the madness I would like to live with for my whole life. God,I thought, make me insane, but let me live with this girl for my whole life.

here i begin

Finally I decide to pen my views(sorry type here) to the entire world. I have always been jostling for a platform where I could give vent to the ideas that keep taking birth in my not so intelligent yet good enough brain and so I have finally decided that the platform would be a Blog initially and lets see what the future holds out.

But who am I?? Like other young adolescents stepping into the man's shoes(or already have I become one) I am a student too and presently completing my engineering in Information Technology from Delhi College Of Engineering(www.dce.ac.in) and my due date in this institution is 2009 after which I shall be handed over to the outside world to make my life.

'LIFE' the word "LIFE" I just used before in the previous sentence has always been an inspiring icon and confusing enough too. The word 'LIFE' has always let me into confusion so many times and has let me think beyond the realms of existence.
The subject 'LIFE' has fascinated me so much that here it is I have decided that I shall start a blog on it. As I mentioned before, after 2009 I would be handed over to the outside world to make my own life. why does it have to be this handed over ting?? Practically if you would see that is what precisely what happens in real life. We just don't know where we are,at what crossroads we are at and just keep doing things as it is customarily done and keep moving on in our life. What constitutes a life lived of,why do we have to be successful in a way to make a life,why are we societal in our behaviour,why does it always seem that everything is not right and an even bigger problem that occurs is that we can do nothing about it, Why is there a constant fear that binds us and we find inescapable? Why are we so afraid of taking chances? Many questions many questions....and many books have been written on the same subject over and over again. Many writers have made alot of money in only telling others how to life even if their own life has been a rotten shit. So what is true and what is false. What differentiates the reality from the illusion.? wait a minute there is even more? The most superior of all the questions that I always keep thinking of is that why doesn't everyone actually think on these lines.? Why are we so complacent minded after all...............
Getting back to the core issue LIFE...... like most thinkers(which I like to believe myself to be one amongst them) I too deviate from the core issue every time and get lost in the realms of a different world of thoughts where I try finding answers to the questions I keep asking in this world.
Anyways I shall keep blogging as of now and as much as I possibly can and yes this blog is primarily meant for wide readership. I wish to install the passion of quest in everybody so that we all are able to escape the illusion of something that sometimes seems to be a practical reality and take you into the world where the world is indeed how you dreamt it to be.................. Trust me my efforts for finding the right answers and more than that ,asking the right questions,.... in the last few years has definitely given me a whole new perspective which I definitely feel its worth sharing it with everyone. Let us not keep living in the illusion and one day when we realize that we are graying ,either we will start to keep hitting out at the reality or die thinking and longing for the reality? Talk to the gray men most of them will affirm my view but yes not legitimately through their tongue.
Well this first post of mine seems confusing. well so am I(confused) :)...... and yes the purpose was the same.... TO CONFUSE YOU AND MAKE YOU THINK......... and through this blog of mine... I shall answer these very questions and yes as the blog says LIFE: through my eyes....... so definitely my purpose is nothing but to make you find YOUR LIFE:through your eyes.........
will be back soon
sayonara