BacK from the dead........

Yes indeed, back from the dead.
It has truly been long that I have been posting at my blog and it was time that I renew my efforts in this directions. First and the foremost thing is that I was away because the exmas @ college kept me occupied for a very long time and this was like one of the longest exam season to have come and gone. The engineering is almost over,but it has left no effort in squeezing every juice out of me. Really it sucked like hell and it always makes me feel what did I gain in the last three and a half years trying to learn the things that I was never going to use in life. Perhaps the system of graduation in our country is goddammed confused as to what it wants the student to do. I guess blaming the system is not the appropriate thing to do. But I guess what becomes more relevant is that instead of blaming the system, we try andunderstand the system as to why it is so, why is the mentality like this and why ultimately it sucks. Coz at any point of time if yo try to talk of change, people are going to kick your a** and then try to praise the system instead. Forget about the moments when the actually are the loudest complaining about the system. So what should be done:
There can be two things that can be done 1)At the macro level
2)At the micro level
At the macro level what you can do is bring about a revolution and blah blah blah........... well this is all that everyone knows and everyone lectures the other people about. I am not going to even talk more about this.

2)AT the micro level
YEs this is going to the point of focus for me. this is something that makes things quite complicated,interesting and fun. At the micro level,I am talking about you, me and anyone who is an individual and when he looks in the mirror he sees himself and wants to be himself. YEs,at the micro level I am talking about an individual. Every individual,who is the part of this very rotten system, stops complaining about the various nefarious designs that this system has,and instead gets up and works hard to create something for HIMSELF,for his happiness and for his ambition, I am talking about that individual who at the the very basic level of himself, who the his individual capacity,change the world for himself, he is that selfish enough to be strongly responsible for himself, I am talking about that individual as the one who can bring about a change in this society and to this world, because when he works at the small capacity,he knows what works and what does not work, what is prominent and what is not, what is that makes the things going and the work done. Maybe I am not clear in this regard, but what I intend to say,I guess, is clear.

Anyways, why the title of this post as back from the dead.?
Well the reason is this: I did not know if I was really living or no. I did not know as to which part of the world I was in. I just knew I was a mechanical body just doing the functions that I was programmed to do maybe with a little bit of artificial intelligence. I could sense fun and laughter, but was I laughing, I don't know. I did grin my teeth alot though. The nutshell is, something was always bugging me. It was eating me up from within. I was feeling miserable, like fly caught in the web, as if it was fault to fly when other insects crawled. Anyways, now finally I am over that period, I have found that missing piece of that jigsaw
puzzle. I have finally found the meaning of everything and then suddenly I felt alive. YEs, a refreshing change and energy came unto me and I felt I was living. I felt the wings grow from my back and I could sense the elation of flying. Finally I have caught up with life,having realized how behind I was and how it was dragging me along the way. Now I walk along with life,sometimes we share a joke or two, and it is really fun. Finally I am back from the dead.