Back from the wild goose chase

aaaaaAAH!
Thats the cry that comes out first when you happen to finish your end semester exams in an engineering college,mine finished on 23rd may and still I have not recovered andits been four days since the exams were over.....
It has been a long 23 days marathon that included the practicals and all nonsense viva and stuff...and you could add an extra 10 to 15 days to it.... so in short 1 and a half month of total crap time.........
And you knw the effect that these 45 days has on an individual..... I will give you my example.. hope you would not laugh... but I guess..anyways..........
Well first comes the difficulty of getting into the exam mode.... since most of us are used to the last minute cramming and these being an engineering subject....which actually cant be crammed.. so at the end of the day we tend to break all laws of the universe.... so wen we try to cram a noncrammable subject... the first thing you tend to loose is your power of thought...and thinking ability.... so we tend to mug up all so that agood answer is vomitted on the paper...
So after the exams the first thing you feel is lost... you have to suddenly come out of the trance to feel and think again.....it took me 4 days for it....
The 2nd thing you feel sleepy... suddenly you feel as if the whole world is devoid of a good sleep. You feel a typical sense of tiredness and a sense of drearyness that is killing.... I slept for almost 14 hours with only an hour gap in between....and you feel so cool after that my god.... sleep seems to be like a drug at that moment.....
But the worst thing I feel that happens to me during this time is that my waistelines starts to increase again... and I grow a little heavier again... all my efforts fot the Operation Reduction goes waste.. alll those crap food,tonnes of tea and coffee with sugar shows the effect....
And the biggest thing I feel I loose within this period is my creativity and vision... suddenly the world starts to seem to enoromous,unconquerable,evil and what not...... and it takes me sometime to revert back to my old state of naturalness and confidence.
Anyways,its one year more and I hope after that this chapter of my life shall be closed........

But why does such a thing take place..... is there any significance to it... this is the state of 80% of the engineering students country-wide.....
One of the basic facts that I believe that occurs is that Enginnering for most of us is an unknown adventure.... which actually gets worse as you happen to realize that there is no purpose or signifince out of it.
Moreover given the state of our education system,our professors ensure that we adapt a crap culture of mugging and vomitting in the exams.....
Engineering is essentially creativity,we are not knowledge creaters,rather we are the ones who create myriads of applications out of one single knowledge.... and creativiy cannot be put to use into something which you don't love and like.....
Given the rigidness of our education system,this is the common state of distress for most of us.
We don't happen to like what we are studying,we don't have any purpose of the subjects that we are studying, the question of 'WHY' of everything remains unanswered in everything.
Moreover we think something else before we come here and something else is found in the college and we go out with something else of this college. THe whole journey remains a wonder and once we are out of this Alice in Wonderland and into the open world,that is the time we get the real pain,the real shrug.

The real problem that we face is the lack of sense for direction,where we are going,what we are studying what we should be studying and all the stuff.
That's why I have called this post 'back from the wild goose chase' because that is the state of affairs in our lives at the moment.

Anywyas coming back to the main theme....
..is there a solution to this directionless life that we lead. There is.But we have to let go off certain good for the great,then only all the possibilities would exist otherwise,there is no chance,not a ray of hope,only disillusionment.This is something which is actually very tough and even as I say I too don't have the real ability to fight this off and come out a winner. But yes I am trying,and I hope to succeed in the near future......
till then
sayonara